because of y.o.u

the best fucking night of my life!!!!

Sat, 19 Nov 2005 04:26:39 GMT

yes tonight was so the best night of my life. laguna beach came to the warwick mall tonight. so me & tanya & brooke went there. we sat outside for 2 hrs in the freezing cold to get the autographs. just our fucking luck by the time we got in there they were leaving because they were only there until 8. so we were still trying to get them but we couldn't. then my cousin felecia called & said they were going to langs tonight so we headed down there. when we got there they were already in bowling. they only people that were there was DIETER, TREY, alex (the blonde one lol), jessica & taylor. after the bowling session we talked to one of the 92 pro fm guys who were there with them & then he went over to their manager & asked her if we could get in to meet them. omg!!! she said YES!! lol we got in & got all their autographs. we took pictures with trey, alex & dieter. they were so nice too! taylor was the nicest one she was so excited lol! they were all fucking awesome.

p.s I LOVE DIETER & TREY!! :)

happy bday jakey!

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 19:47:26 GMT

aww today is jakey's bday!! i haven't seen him in forever though. tanya randomly called him this morning & woke him up at like 9 just to say happy birthday lol! he goes yeah i haven't talked to you guys in like 2months & you call me on my bday lol! aww we love ya jakey poo. your just too cool for us lol! your the one who never calls us not the other way around :)

i don't wanna be your LOVER.. i just wanna be MYSELF

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 13:37:56 GMT

sunday night i went to the bestest concert ever at lupo's lol! i saw THE INVITE, straylight run, paramore & the plain white t's. it was the bestest concert ever cause THE INVITE was there duh lol! all i have to say is i love matty scan & brooke loves johnny gates :) little miss heather didn't wanna go cause she was too tired. well you missed out on the greatest show ever lol! next time you better go cause we were bumming without you.

is it a girl or a boy?

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 23:09:33 GMT

the other night i got to close with my buddy mario at work. he's a manager at the north providence store. he's so the best manager ever lol! yeah so i closed with him, dally & mikey. we found out the bestest news ever lol! MARIO'S GONNA BE A DADDY!! awww! cause his girl came to visit & they were outside talking. when she left he told us she is pregnant. me & dally wrote it on the big board & wrote it in the red book so everybody would know lol! awww! i can't wait to see the little mario lol! he said if it's a boy he wants to name him romeo & if it's a girl then he'll let his girl name her. me & dally were so excited cause babies are so cute!!!

she's 17!!!!

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 05:42:01 GMT

it is 12:39 am which means it is november 1st. so it is offically my bestest buddy jamie's bday. she's finally 17. damn that took forever lol!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE!!!!!

my heart gets so WEAK & i can't even BREATH ....

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 05:22:38 GMT

i finally got to hang out with my warwick kids today! i missed those kids so much haha! me & brooke went to russell & they were all over there. oh & thanks for thinking i was dead cassidy lol! your a fucking dumb ass who doesn't even know that what 2500 plus another 0 is. i'm so sorry that was wrong lol! you must have felt so dumb cause you looked like it but thats ok cause we all still love ya! yeah CASSIDY IS MY BOY FOR LIFE haha! the only thing that sucked about going to russell's was dave was fucking there & of course we got into another fight. IT'S OVER & DONE WITH!!! but he doesn't get it. what is it gonna take for him to get it beside me fucking saying it's over & that i'm over it. i'm sick of the drama & can't handle him anymore. i don't even know why we fought today in fact i never know why we fucking fight. i'm not gonna waste my breath anymore. i can't even look at him anymore without getting pissed off.

the song says it all!!

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 19:36:53 GMT

have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry // have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night // have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right // have you ever been in love so bad that you'd do anything to make them understand // have you ever had someone steal your heart away you'd give anything up to make them feel the same // have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart but you don't know what to say & you don't know where to start // have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry // have you ever found the one you've dreamed of all your life you'd do just about anything to look into their eyes // have you finally found the one you've given your heart to only to find that one won't give their heart to you // have you ever closed your eyes & dreamed that they were there & all you can do is wait for the day when they will care // what do i gotta do to get you in my arms // what do i gotta say to get to your heart // to make you understand how i need you next to me // i gotta get you in my world cause baby i can't sleep // have you ever...

.. if you were mine ..

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 03:33:53 GMT

GUESS WHAT? there ain't nothing better than working with todd cj & tina lol! singing mad old songs instead of working lol. yeah it was slow as hell tonight so me & cj were singing old ass songs lol! we were doing a will smith melody as todd calls it haha! then we started singing like every boyz II men song. we even broke down & sang going crazy by natalie lol! tina is one crazy ass bitch too.. i love that girl haha! she's so fucking funny talking about me & her fucking cj lol! yeah ok that would never happen she wishes lol! cj & todd were naming great places to have sex in the restaurant. cj said on top of the soda machine & todd goes nah on top of the video game lol! i love working with those 3. shit it beats working with mikey. i'm always pissed when i work with him cause like tina says he's a fucking loser lol! i love my job!! :) haha

BROKENHEARTED .... life's not over i can start again!!

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 05:51:37 GMT

omg! today i met this great kid!! his name is guner & he's such a cuttie! i think it's time to forget about all the guys that i got crushes on cause nothing is gonna happen with them. i think i met the kid that i want. he's from west warwick well actually he lives in kentucky right now but he used to live there. he told me he's coming back in april when he turns 18. i hope he does!! he's the sweetest kid i ever met & did i mention that he's really cute too lol!
yeah well it's almost 2 am so i gotta go to bed. i got wack ass school tomorrow morning. damn it!! the only good thing about that is gym & science cause my crackhead sam & pita bread dave are in those classes with me lol!

.... it's ok to be angry & never let go ....

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 20:05:17 GMT

my mom finally talked to this girl bonnie at her job for me. cause she works at a nursing home called biarcliff manor & i want to work at the activity room there. she finally asked her about me getting a job there. bonnie wants me to go there after school on tuesday to talk to her. it's only gonna be on the weekends though cause i'm still gonna work at papa gino's. they make 9.50/hr in the activity room. i'm only making 7.10/hr at papa gino's. my mom said i should leave papa gino's & work there instead. i don't wanna so i'm gonna still work my old job & then work biarcliff on the weekends.
so today i was supposed to go to the movies with dave & sam but that didn't happen. i don't know why but aww well lol! russel & john came over instead. we watched amityville horror & the original halloween. john is such a little baby he was screaming his head off lol! STOP MAKING FUN OF ME JOHNNY :)

FUCK IT .... SMILE & LIVE Y0UR LIFE LIKE YOU WANT TO

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 22:50:48 GMT

today i realized i'm done with all the bullshit i've dealt this year. i'm done with all the people who fucking caused it too. wow! brooke is the one who said it all in her profile lol! your the best i love ya. here's what she wrote in it. i decided that i'm going to live life, hate me? good cause i don't give a fuck.. fuck me over? go ahead i won't even waste my time, really now anyone can try and piss me off, make me cry it's not going to work.. don't like me? DEAL WITH IT cause i refuse to act like someone i'm not to make other people happy honestly everyone can hate me i don't care i got the people i need in my life, so you wanna talk shit? go for it cause anyone can talk about me till there face turns blue it just won't phase me.. i'm me & i'm going to be me no more drama OBVIOUSLY! & for those who think this is about them get over it. it's not about anyone it's just how people gotta look at things now a days.. cause you don't need anyone in your life that don't need you back.

has anyone seen my shoes!!

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 01:54:09 GMT

i'm so excited cause today i bought dane cook's new cd!! YES!!! he is the funniest mother fucker on the planet. there's nobody funnier lol! if you don't know who he is then you better go pick up his cd right now. it's called dane cook retaliation. i'm telling you that you'll love it. you should go see his new movie too. he's in the movie waiting with the hot ryan reynolds lol! so yeah i'm listening to his cd right now lol!

ask me when i start to weap // then i'll tell you in my sleep

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 03:23:20 GMT

what is wrong with me lol! i went from updating this everyday to like every 2 weeks lol! i promise from now on i'll go back to updated everyday lol! so yeah not much has been going on lately. still the same old shit. still can't get him outta my head. every single night i can't even go to bed anymore but i'm gonna give it up. theres no point in wanting something you can't have. at least that's what a very wise person once said to me & i think her name is BROOKE lol! i gotta love my buddy she so gives the best advice. if you ever have a problem you need to go to her with it cause i do everyday lol! i just call her up & she goes whats wrong now. i mean she doesn't even say hey lol! so theres this new boy lol. well he's not new i've known him since like middle school but i just never liked him till now :) so brooke told me to forget about mikey & move on to him lol! i so wish i could but yeah that will never happen lol!

in need of a serious update haha!

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 00:12:35 GMT

omg! i haven't updated this thing in forever lol! it's like i totally forgot about it haha! but ya haven't missed much cause nothings been going on really. still the same old drama!! i joined the myspace craze lol! yeah jamie got me to join livejournal & now she got me to join myspace. my url on it is myspace.com/igetweakintheknees. add me if ya got it.

bored as hell!!!!

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 18:02:08 GMT

i'm so bored right now it's not even funny. i made a new sn for aim cause i got sick of my old one lol. it's xo igetsoweak ox if anybody cares lol! my mom is such a loser haha! she's at work right now & their having some cookout thingy over there. they got a car show & stuff like that. she keeps calling me & asking me if i wanna go. she asked her boss if e could leave to pick me up but i don't wanna go. if she wasn't working i would go there with her but i don't wanna be there by myself while she's working. she's such an idiot!!

new celly haha!!

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 17:38:35 GMT

yup yesterday i finally got my new cell phone. it's a samsung from t-mobile. i got prepaid cause i'm sick of paying a bill every month lol! the 1st ring tone i downloaded was untitled by simple plan cause i fucking love that song lol! now the bad news is i gotta go to fucking work at 3. damn it lol!

best fucking night EVER!!

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 19:16:46 GMT

omg last night was crazy. it was the best fucking night of my life without a doubt lol! i went with russell katie & brooke to see my chemical romance at the station park. it fucking rocked my socks haha! all i have to say is frankie is even hotter in person. i didn't think it was possible for him to get any hotter. damn! i was so wrong lol! sorry jamie i didn't get to touch frankie's ass like i said i was gonna lol! i wish every night could be like last night. i found out that fall out boy is coming here too in like november i think. i hope i can go to that too.
school was great today lol! i can't believe i saw jacob today. i haven't seen him since 10th gr when he left charter. ryan mcg told me he was at some boot camp cause he did something i forgot what lol! i was at my locker & he walked by & goes what you can't say hi to me. i turned around & freaked out when i saw him lol! i was like omg jakey lol! i missed him cause he was my buddy back in 10th gr. he is the funniest kid you will ever met haha! I LOVE JACOB HAHA!!

can't fucking wait!!!

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 22:21:59 GMT

all i have to say is i can't fucking wait till tomorrow. cause of course i'm going to see mcr duh!! one of the best bands out everybody knows that lol! can't wait to see them perform my two favorite songs live. which would be the ghost of you & guys like us in prison. i'm going with three of my many warwick kids lol! russy poo katie & brookie. oh jamie told me to touch someone's bum for her lol! so it's gonna be frank's cause i'm fucking in love with him. as you can see lol cause his pic is my layout & the top says frank iero is love :)
x3 tiffany

you can make me .....!

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 20:15:29 GMT

just like an angel you're gonna make me fly // into your arms you're wrapping me up so tight // you had me crawling so bad // got me heels over head // you got me easy // tangled up in my head // reaching for heaven to help me // cause we're already beautiful // so don't make me cry // cause this love don't feel so right // you can't push a river // you can't make me fall // but you can make me unreachable // i may be sweet but i'm still on the vine // you couldn't wait // no you had to take your bite // you had me crawling so bad // had me heels over head // you had me easy // so they took a bet // to realize what we had // we were already beautiful // so don't make me cry // cause this love don't feel so right // you can't push a river // you can't make me fall // but you can make me unreachable // sometimes love is addiction // sometimes it hurts like hell // & sometimes you just cannot get enough // you can't make me love you any more than i do // but you can make me unreachable // don't make me cry // cause this love don't feel right // you can't push a river // you can't make me fall // but you can make me unreachable

goodbye summer.. hello drama..

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 23:52:40 GMT

yesterday was the 1st day back to school. i was so glad to go to east & see everybody again. but god damn do people change lol! i haven't seen most of them for like 3yrs & i'm glad i can now lol! you know why katie haha :) after school russell & john came to pick me up. we went to their house for a little while & then i had to go to work at 4.
today i was almost late on my 2nd day back lol! i'm surprised i wasn't cause my mom's boyfriend didn't get outta the shower till like 10 past 7. i had some more fun at lunch with my law class & lunch buddy amanda haha! she changed alot over the yrs too. i remember in bain she was so quiet & kinda nerdy. which is how she put it not me so i ain't mean lol! you gotta love that girl :) well i didn't have to work tonight thank god1 i was supposed to get my new cell phone tonight but i got more school clothes instead. i'm gonna get my cell thursday though. i don't give a shit what my mom says cause she's the reason why i got more school clothes instead. WHATEVER FUCK THAT BITCH!!

IT'S TIME to SAY GOODBYE!!!!!

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 03:49:37 GMT

today i went out with my mom & got last minute school stuff. just my backpack & some notebooks. then we went to my aunt's so she could cut my mom's hair. i went to work at 5. all day my boss was like are you ready for school tomorrow lol! jim is the best lol!!
yesterday i watched gabby till like 4 cause dave had to go to court. then i went over katie's with russell. oh man! i haven't seen them in awhile lol! i miss my warwick kids haha! russell took me to work at 5. i didn't really wanna go though. i was having fun with my warwick kids & didn't wanna go to drama central which is what i call my job.
i don't wanna write about this again but i gotta stop it. cause it's really time to say goodbye to all that i feel for him. i now it's not gonna happen with us. i have to admit i'm in love with him but he's doesn't feel that way for me. kayla & val both keep saying how do you know how he feels. just tell him how you feel & maybe he does too. i'm going crazy thinking about him all the time. no matter what i do he's always on my mind. it sounds so cliche but i can't sleep cause i lay in bed thinking about him. so tonight i'm gonna say goodbye too all of it!! even though i know i will still feel this way for him.

i got a 8x10 for you to sign ......

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 00:02:39 GMT

today is labor so i we had a cookout. it was just me, my mom, dave, gabbie, dave's mom & grandma & grandfather. me & my grandfather had some fun picking on my grandmother lol! that's really all that i did today lol! wow what a boring day. so i'm just sitting here listening to music right now. tomorrow i gotta watch gabbie till about 4. cause dave has to go to court for something. then i gotta go to work at 5.
x3 tiffany

i don't wanna love you // don't wanna need you

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 13:47:47 GMT

well i'm just sitting here watching the real world. it's an old episode though. the one where danny's mom passes away & he has to go home & mel gets an email from him saying he might not come back. there's something she has in this episode that i love. it's been on my mind since i saw it. she says "it's so hard knowing the closet thing to my perfection is so far out of reach." all i have to say to that is no truer words have ever been spoken. damn when i first heard her say it i said how did she get into my head like that. cause i feel the same way. she meant danny was her perfection & he was home so he was out of her reach. now i have to admit that i have fallen in love with someone & like danny was to mel at that time this person is to me. he is my perfection but so very very reach out of my reach. i have a feeling he always will be. val tends to disagree with me though cause i always say that nothing will ever happen with me & him. all she can ever say though is but what if. i'm sorry val but there is no what if with me & him. i love you for keeping the faith though!!
x3 tiffany

is my soul hung out to dry??

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 13:49:00 GMT

yesterday i did some more school shopping with my mom. i just had to get shoes & a backpack. then we went to get some chinese food. she had to get a fill for her nails so we went to l.a nails & i got mine done too. i got a french manicure cause i love those lol! they look so pretty! i had to go next door to my job cause i had to pay kathy for avon. my mom's nails were still wet so she asked dally if she could go in her pocket & she gave her this weird look & she goes huh? lol! then she said angelia can you go in my pocket & get my keys lol! mikey was there but he didn't even say hi to me :( i hope it was cause he had to go on some delivery or something. i dunno i'll find out tonight when i work with him if everything is alright with us now.
today i'm gonna go to the movies with michelle & val. like always we ain't sure what movie were gonna see. cause michelle sees every new movie lol! but i think were either gonna see charlie & the chocolate factory or the four brothers. then were gonna get some lunch after that & go to work cause me & val gotta be in for 5 tonight
x3 tiffany

i am the biggest // IDIOT EVER!!

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 15:36:25 GMT

so worked fucking sucked last night! i worked with yima & dally & mikey. well i got into a fight with yima & dally. i feel so fucking bad cause i took it all out on mikey. they pissed me off so bad that i was mad all night and whenever he tried to talk to me or something i was such a bitch to him. i didn't mean it but when i'm pissed i tend to take it out on everybody. so when the night was over he had some delivers to go on & i was done with my work so i did all the shit mikey has to do at night. i guess it was my way of making up for the fact that i was such a bitch to him all day. so he gave me a ride home like he does everytime we close together and we didn't even talk the whole time. which is not like us cause we always got stupid shit to talk about to each other lol! so when we got to my house he said wtf was your problem today & i had nothing to say. all i could say was i'm sorry mikey & he goes no don't say that just don't do it again lol! he said i know you were pissed off at yima & dally but damn don't take it out on me. he said i always thought me and you were friends and then i said the dumbest thing every. i said no mikey we ain't friends & he said why so i said cause we just work together we don't hang out or shit like that. the look on his face was enough to fucking kill me omg! i'm so fucking dumb. then he goes well i can relate to the fact that you took what they did to you out on me cause when i'm pissed i'm just like that and take it out on people around me too. all i could say was i'm sorry mikey over and over cause i am. i could never be mad at him and he knows it i'm just a fucking bitch and i realized that today. i need to change but i can't. actually let me correct that i wanna change everything but i just don't know how.
x3 tiffany